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22 Aug 97
On 12 Aug, Super-User <root@hagar.mech.wits.ac.za> posted
> Subject: Questions for Koos and others: the USP series and me > Message-ID: <5sqem4$85b$1@nntp.wits.ac.za>
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> I read through the entire USP series twice. Thank you Koos - it > has really helped me. > > I realise now full well that I AM an SP. This is not by way of my actions, > but by my intention to destroy others. What I found disappointing > about the USP series was the little given in aid of readers who ARE > SP's, who REALISE this, and who WANT to change.
Unfortunately, Koos mostly just rants and raves about things.
He sees a small fire and instead of putting it out, he pours petrolium on it so that others will see it better
and acknoledge that Koos has seen a real fire.
I have looked at some of his materials and have not found them to be helpful in actually changing conditions for
the better.
There are many things in Homer's archives that are actually helpfull, and there are the many LRH books, and there
is the material that I have been posting, and lots of other good stuff.
To begin with, let us NOT say that you are suppressive. This is just a big generality and a way for others to blame
things on you and discount what you are saying.
Instead, let us recognize that you have spotted an evil intention "to destroy others" and acknowlege
that you are already advanced enough to confront this and realize that it is undesirable. You seem to be willing
to do something about it, and that is half of the battle right there.
A person adopts an evil purpose in an attempt to solve an area of heavy confusion and non-confront.
These are never the person's real purpose, but are only abberated solutions to things going wrong. Therefore, they
are labled false purposes in modern Scientology.
These things are encouraged by old implants which give you self-destructive ideas like the only way out is to destroy.
But those are only suggestions. It is you who either chooses to follow them or finds a better way to deal with
life.
From the situation you described, it seems like you are still in the midst of the "confusion" and have
not yet jammed the false purpose in on top of it completely.
So let us move on to dealing with the confusion itself.
> ... > So I decided to be in > perpetual suppression of others rather than be called names - it did > work: people have this bizarre respect for me, but I'm hurting them > and having no social life. This is really miserable. > > I hate life, I hate people, and I hate this world. I see people as > coming in three kinds: those that would destroy me, those that > would condone my destruction, and those who are too thick or > afraid to do anything but stand by and watch. > > Now my question is this: Is the problem that I feel pain over their > thoughts, or that I say wrong things to give them those thoughts > to start off with? > > Is this just me, or do other people have this problem with thoughts > of others and just keep it a secret, as I have my whole life.
I had this trouble for a time during my teens.
Although I do believe in telepathy, it is not necessary to bring it into the picture to analyze this problem. Everybody
feels other people's approval or disapproval. The means by which this occurs is secondary to the unpleasant feeling
of being disliked and rejected. Even a psychologist could see this on the basis of the subliminal clues that we
give each other. So let's not worry about how this done but simply recognize that most people usually can recognize
how others feel about them.
The first key to this whole thing is that there are FEEDBACK EFFECTS.
If you project love, it encourages love. If you project hate, it encourages hate. These things bounce back and
forth. You put out some bad feelings in their direction and they feel worse about you so you are encouraged to
put out more hate and so they put out more hate and so you put out more hate, etc. Or you put out some good feelings
and they feel a little bit better about you and so you are encouraged to put out more good feelings and so they
are encouraged to put out more good feelings, and so forth.
If you can put out love despite their hate, it gradually reduces their hate and they begin to feel better about
you.
Of course there are many other factors involved in inter-personal relationships. But this one is so significant
that it can turn things around all by itself.
The second key is that real world communications can take preceedent over the subtiler mental effects.
If somebody is thinking "what a stupid shit he is" and you say something like "how are you?"
it often derails the though process.
Thoughts are often very transient things of low significance. And people bounce back and forth between contradictory
ideas quite freequently.
In Scientology there is something called the ARC triangle which is the idea that Affinity (liking), Reality (agreement),
and Communications are all inter-related and have a feedback effect upon each other. In other words, if you communicate
more, then people tend to like you more and agree with you more. And if you like people, they tend to communicate
with you more and are more inclined to agree with you. And so on.
Because of this, Scientology pushes communication heavily in its beginners courses because it does produce radical
improvements in a person's life. But they don't have an exclusive on the subject of communication. Anything that
you can do to improve your ability to communicate with others will help.
The ability to percieve other's viewpoints is a very powerful one. It means that you must act as the more evolved
being in your relationships to others. It is for you to make the communications go well.
This does not mean propitiating or fawning on other people. That is actually not very good communication and people
don't generally like it very much.
What it means is real communication. Confident, comfortable, warm, and certain. And realize that sometimes you
have to keep communicating for awhile before the effect is felt. People take time to change.
> I think that people on this newsgroup spend to much effort trying to > convince readers of the truth of their knowledge than giving them > alternatives. OK, I'm convinced that we have been reincarnating for > billions of years, I believe in Xenu, Venus, etc etc. > Now what the hell must I do! I can't afford auditing at $NNN-NN > dollars per hour. I can't even afford a psychiatrist. I have gotton > much benefit from the writings of Homer and Koos. But more than > this, I've been given a false sense of hope: "YES! we've found you the > solution to life, you're just to financially inadequite."
You can do a lot with self-study and solo processing. Its more than just believing in things. You can do various
drills and exercises and processes. But you will need much more understanding than somebody who is being processed
by a professional. You will have to become your own professional by self-study.
Take advantage of the wealth of material that is here on the internet. And search out printed books and materials
as well. Its all in your own hands.
> I'm also not convinced that all these newsgroup contributors are so happy > where I have managed to conceal my own unhappyness so well. "Come out and > admit your own unhappyness first, and then you will have some credibility." > I would really like to talk sincerely to those who would admit similar > problems to mine.
I'm unhappy about lots of things. There is much that I would like to change in the world. I would, for example,
like to see orthodox Scientology reformed. This is not just an idle passtime for me. I put many years of my life
into the subject and mucho dollers as well. I think that I have a right to demand that they act better. And I have
a vested interested in wanting to see them forwarding the cause of spiritual advancement instead of inhibiting
all further research in the field. Besides which, many of my friends are still at the effect of how Scientology
chooses to kick them around.
But you get better by moving forward in areas where you are making progress rather than by immersing yourself in
failures and self-pity. As you gain strength in one area, it carries over into other areas that previously seemed
imposible.
Things spiral upwards or downwards. You can't take the entire weight on your shoulders at once. In metaphysics
they say that "a tree grows from a single seed". So you take the easy targets first and build up.
> I would love to start my own 'org' and audit people and be audited > day and night, and perhaps devote my life to studying this phenonemen. But > where is the fascility for doing this? In this country I have met > only one practacing Scientologist outside of the Church and he wanted > around $50 (roughly) per hour. I would need thousands of hours to > become a clear, he said. Right now, I'm a student, with just enough > scholarship money to support myself. What are my options?
If you are going to start an organization and audit, you definitely need to undertake a course of study, learning
and investigating everything that you can about the mind. I'm a firm believer in self-study. All it requires is
time, motivation, and sources of materials to study. Investigate the libraries, explore the internet, read and
digest and apply everything that you can lay your hands on.
Its not a matter of belief. Its a matter of understanding and practical application.
I'm looking forward to seeing your org when you are ready to create one.
And perhaps there are others in your area who will contact you
if you keep posting to the net.
> HELP > > Paul Sheer > > psheer@hertz.mech.wits.ac.za > psheer@budget.mech.wits.ac.za > > Tel +27 11 788 7748
Best,
The Pilot
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