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Copyright 1997

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wishes to remain anonymous and therefore is writing under the
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        SELF CLEARING

A handbook for self enlightenment

         By The Pilot

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          CONTENTS

PREFACE
ADVICE AND WARNINGS
IF YOU GET IN TROUBLE

CHAPTER  1: BEGINNING STEPS
CHAPTER  2: REACH AND WITHDRAW
CHAPTER  3: THOUGHTS, EMOTIONS, AND ATTITUDES
CHAPTER  4: SUBJECTIVE PROCESSES
CHAPTER  5: STUDY
CHAPTER  6: CONFRONTING THE PAST
CHAPTER  7: WILLINGNESS AND ACCESSIBILITY
CHAPTER  8: COMMUNICATION BARRIERS
CHAPTER  9: MORE ON COMMUNICATIONS

CHAPTER 10: THE DUPLICATION FACTOR
CHAPTER 11: EXTERIORIZATION
CHAPTER 12: HELP
CHAPTER 13: CHANGE AND NO CHANGE
CHAPTER 14: PROTEST
CHAPTER 15: PROBLEMS
CHAPTER 16: MUST HAVE AND CAN'T HAVE
CHAPTER 17: MUST AVOID AND CAN'T GET RID OF
CHAPTER 18: CAUSE
CHAPTER 19: OVERTS, MOTIVATORS, AND WITHHOLDS

CHAPTER 20: A STEP FURTHER OUT
CHAPTER 21: AFFINITY, REALITY, AND COMMUNICATION
CHAPTER 22: MORE ON UPSETS
CHAPTER 23: TRICKERY AND FALSE DATA
CHAPTER 24: SUPPRESSION
CHAPTER 25: JUSTIFICATIONS AND RESPONSIBILITY
CHAPTER 26: REPRESSION
CHAPTER 27: KEEPING YOURSELF MOVING
CHAPTER 28: INCIDENT RUNNING
CHAPTER 29: HANDLING LOSS

CHAPTER 30: LOCATIONS
CHAPTER 31: ADVANCED INCIDENT RUNNING
CHAPTER 32: INCREASING PERCEPTION AND ORIENTATION
CHAPTER 33: SOURCES AND OTHER ADVANCED MECHANICS
CHAPTER 34: IMPLANTS
CHAPTER 35: ENTRY POINTS
CHAPTER 36: ENTRY INTO THIS UNIVERSE
CHAPTER 37: UNIVERSES
CHAPTER 38: ENTITIES AND SPIRITUAL FRAGMENTS
CHAPTER 39: ENERGY

CHAPTER 40: MACHINERY
CHAPTER 41: BODIES
CHAPTER 42: OBJECTS AND INFINITY
CHAPTER 43: ADVANCED CONCEPTS
CHAPTER 44: ETHICS, MORALITY, AND THE DYNAMICS
CHAPTER 45: AESTHETICS
CHAPTER 46: THE UPPER DYNAMICS
CHAPTER 47: POSTULATES
CHAPTER 48: NEXT STEPS

APPENDIX A: NOTES FOR PROFESSIONALS
APPENDIX B: CORRECTION LIST
APPENDIX C:  COFS EQUIVALENTS

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SELF CLEARING: PREFACE

"And The Truth Shall Set You Free"
  - Jesus of Nazareth

The truth shall not seek you, you must go forth and search 
for it.  And laying hands upon it, you must clean the dirt
from the gemstone, separating the wisdom from the falsity which has
been encrusted around it.  For mortals, when they find the divine,
rarely let it soar upwards but instead surround it with their
desires for wealth and power and self-righteousness.

For this you need tools.

This book is a tool kit for the seekers after truth.

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SELF CLEARING: INTRODUCTION AND PURPOSE

The hardest road is the road that you walk alone.

But the bridge that you build with your own hands is the most
satisfying to walk upon.

Here is a guidebook for those who would find their own way out of
the trap.

This will be an introductory book in the sense that it will not
assume that the reader has already engaged upon any particular course
of study, but it is not really a beginners book.  It will demand
much of the reader and will pull no punches as far as introducing
powerful and advanced concepts.

Unlike most metaphysical books, this one will include a great
deal of mental exercises and techniques.  The theories will be
intertwined with practical actions to clear oneself of mental
barriers and aberrations and to regain abilities, awareness, and
recall of one's past existence.

For this I must thank L. Ron Hubbard who showed the way.  In the 
1950s, during the early Scientology research, he took many of the 
ideas of metaphysics and turned them from abstract contemplations 
into exercises that could be drilled and strengthened.  The

approach was valid and the current techniques of Scientology are
still valid, but they have deteriorated into a shadow of what
was present in the early days and they are buried under the
weight of fixed ideas (a limited application which Scientology
refers to as "Standard Tech") and rigid and abusive policies.

This book is the next step beyond Hubbard's powerful early work
in the days before Scientology was cast in concrete.  It is
dedicated to the creation of self-clearing individuals who can
find their own way out of the trap.

We do not have all the answers.  We do not have a complete road map.
But metaphysics is now going through the equivalent of the
industrial revolution.  I invite you to participate in the 
forefront of this revolution.

- -------

Spiritual Orientation:

If we continue beyond the withering and death of our mortal shells,
then the most reasonable conclusion would be that we live many
lives.  To live one life and then be fixed and frozen in position
for all of eternity would not only be cruel, it would also be
absurd and a waste of life-force.

If one lives again in the future, then the logical conclusion is
that one has lived before as well and that some mechanism interferes
with the recollection of it.

If we are immortal spirits, then there are only two possibilities,
namely that we are creations, set upon our road like clockwork toys
by a greater being, or that we are parts of the creator.

The shadows of creative power that remain to us, whether symphonies
or paintings or stories, show that we do have the capabilities of
creation.  And the projection of our own realities within our
dreams show that this creativity can be extended to the creation
of material forms from nothingness.

If we create, then we are creators rather than creations.  This
implies that we are fragments or mirror images of God, portions
of His consciousness which are trapped within the created universes.

If God made man in his own image, then that image would be bodiless
for how could God be locked within a body.  And that image would be
capable of creating because the matter and energy within the universes
does not create itself.

Furthermore, if we are part of God, then we have decayed from a
godlike state, for God would not begin in a trapped condition.
This tells us that the problem must be due to blockage added
on rather than an inherent lack of ability.  In other words,
the aberrations (distortions) and inabilities are due to additives 
rather than things which are missing.

Before all creations, there can only be nothingness.  Therefore,
God must be a nothingness with the power to conceive and create.
This implies that at basic there is no personality for there would
be no context in which a personality could manifest.  So let us
put aside all personification of God and instead refer to an
infinite nothingness with the potential for infinite creation.

And the creation would take place to balance the nothingness with
somethingness.  And thus God would be all accepting and all
embracive.  And from this it could be said that God is love.
Not just love of goodness, but love of ALL.  And the only evil
would be in denying one's true nature as part of this infinite
and creative nothingness.

And as shadows or fragments or children of God, we too 
would each be a nothingness of infinite potential,
striving to create and engaging in an exchange of creations.

And our decay, at basic, would consist of denials of our true
nature.  Decisions to not create, not to experience, not to perceive,
and not to communicate;  Denials of responsibility and causation.
And by our very nature, no blockage would succeed unless we
ourselves created it.

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THE DECISIONS

For the sake of an easier road, I will ask you to make a number
of decisions and adopt a number of attitudes which will aid your
progress.

These are not prerequisites.  If you can't accept some of these,
then carry on anyway.

These are things that I believe an advanced student will come to

eventually and which will seem natural and rational to you when 
you are far enough along.  If you can accept them now, it will
act as a shortcut.

These are not absolutes, and an advanced student would apply them
with understanding rather than blind faith.  But in the absence
of full awareness, you will be right a majority of the time if
you use these rather than their opposites.

1. Communication

All indications are that willful decisions not to communicate
were a significant part of the original factors which caused
us to deteriorate.

In any situation where you are unsure as to whether to say
something or not, your best course (lacking any other reasons)
would be to communicate rather than to keep your mouth shut.
One of Hubbard's most famous quotes is "When in doubt, communicate".
And if you do get in trouble for communicating, the solution is
often to communicate more rather than to back down.

2. Confront

Flinching at things and backing down from them leaves them free
to operate against you.  That which is not confronted tends to
persist.  That which is fully viewed tends to come back under
one's control and ceases to affect one adversely.

And so it is generally better to face up to things rather than
to suppress them or hide them.

3. Forgiveness

We have been at each others throats for a long time, in a mutually
destructive tit for tat.  We have taken turns for lifetime after
lifetime playing good guys and bad guys.  Both Jesus and Buddha
saw this one and it is an important part of the road out.

If you need more encouragement, then please realize that forgiving
others lessens the weight of your own karma, for in forgiving
them you forgive yourself as well.  And we have all been around
long enough to have tried every possible role and committed every
dastardly deed at least a few times.  The only way out is mutual
forgiveness and an abandonment of vengeance and getting even.

4. Responsibility
  
At the top, responsibility means causation and control rather than
blame.  If you are responsible for something, it is part of your
creation and if you reject responsibility and shift blame to others,
it is a denial of self and an abandonment of control.

In modern times people fight to avoid responsibility, but in the
early days we fought to become the one who was responsible for
something, for with responsibility comes power.

5. Love

Love is the highest form of acceptance.  Here is the way to embrace
and permeate the universe and it can be used to dissolve as well
as to encourage.  For with love, an evil thing can be brought to
fulfillment and changed so that it need no longer struggle to maintain
its evil.  Turning again to the wisdom of Jesus, we find "Love
thy neighbor as thyself", "Love thine enemies", and "God is Love".

6. Wisdom

Knowledge is power.  Do not be afraid to learn anything.  Do not
flinch from complexity or difficulty.  Learn everything you can,
and do not be satisfied with the mere collection of data but
strive for understanding and practical application.  Always search
for the reasons why that lie behind things.

7. Rightness

Rightness is earned and comes most to those who are willing to
be wrong.  Never blindly cling to your own correctness and always
be willing to re-examine your premises.  The road our is long and
complex and you will have to revise your thinking many times along
the way.  Be flexible and allow yourself to grow.

8. Viewpoints

At basic we are all interconnected in the infinite nothingness
of which we are a part.  Anyone can and has taken on any role.
Strive to see things from other's viewpoints as well as your
own.  At the top, mutually exclusive and contradictory viewpoints
can be held simultaneously.  Consider playing both sides of a
chess game.  As black one is determined that black shall win and
as white one intends the opposite.  One person can hold both
ideas.  This is the key to dissolving a game in which one has

become entrapped.

Furthermore, your efforts to communicate with others are best
done from the context of their viewpoints rather than your own.

9. Life

Do not reject life.  Do not suppress all desire.  Do not seek to
stop all motion.

As you expand, you become more alive and more in motion.  You
can have more things and enjoy more things.  At the top it is 
infinite creation and the motion and the things that you have are
also infinite for you can create them at will.

But do not let yourself be ruled by passions or desires.  Do
not allow yourself to be consumed by greed or lust.  Do not
become so attached to the physical that you become entrapped
within it.

Broader, lighter desires lead outward.  Narrow, fixated desires
lead to entrapment.

Enjoy passions and desires as part of the richness of your
creation, but always at your will.  Do not let them dominate.
You are the greater and they are the shadows that you create
by choice to add interest and variety to life.

10. Help

The best help is that help which eliminates the need for help.
It is far better to teach someone to make money rather than to
give them money, for with the one comes dependence and with the
other comes greater ability and freedom.

We are in this together and there is a great need for us to help
each other.  But "God helps those who help themselves" and you
would be wise to do the same.

Give help freely.  Do not use it as a means of domination.

And most important, if you yourself wish to attain freedom and
enlightenment, then guide others on the same path.  The best
way to learn something is to teach, and the best way to gain 
something is to share it with others.

11. Opponents

If you are striving to be the best at something, always do it
by raising your own skills and never by diminishing the skills
of your competitors.  You run fastest when there is somebody
in front of you setting the pace.  Always be glad to have a
strong competitor for it leads you towards new hights.

We are not really in competition.  It is only a game.  In the
long run we will all be teammates together in the game of
escaping from the trap.

Do not crush your opponents.  You will want them around later.

12. Goals

We are all capable of infinite creation.  There is no shortage
of resources at the top.  Appearances to the contrary, we are
not in competition with each other.  The idea that only one will
survive is false.

An immortal godlike being's greatest need is for others like
himself all adding to the richness and variety of creation for
that is the only way to avoid boredom and hubris.

Work towards greater ability and creativity both for yourself
and others.  

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This book is not a complete answer.  It is the beginning of a long
and difficult, but most rewarding road.

It is my goal to leave the reader better prepared than any past
student of metaphysics.  Oriented to the highest truths and the
most advanced techniques, the student begins as an initiate rather
than a novice.

When we introduce children to science, we do not hide the existence
of chemistry or physics or nuclear energy.  The entire framework
is presented early.  But this does not substitute for the long
and detailed study needed to master these areas.  They know
the law of gravity and the basic principles involved, but they
are a far cry from calculating orbital insertion speeds.

Studying this book is a beginning rather than an end.

- -------

By working alone instead of with an expert practitioner who
already knows the territory, you are constrained to moving forward
in a simple and orderly series of steps, taking each action as
far as you can.  By doing this entire book, you will raise your
ability and horsepower even though you might not completely master
each step on the first time through.

You will then be in a position to go through the book a second time, 
taking each action further as needed.  It is this second pass that
will give strength and stability.

This means that you cannot count on handling any specific difficulty
as you go through the book.  Instead you are working for a general 
gain in ability with the confidence that eventually you will push 
through the various things that are currently bothering you.

So don't judge your progress by any specific standard such as a
problem or disability that you feel should be handled.  That will
only lead to invalidating the real progress that you might be
making.  The only valid criteria for judging your progress on this
route would be in terms of a broad increase of abilities with the
recognition that there might be blind spots and troublesome areas
that do not resolve until you are extremely far along.

In other words, this is not a therapy.

- -------

Other useful materials include the "Super Scio" book that I
put out on the internet in early 1997.  That book assumes
that the reader is already familiar with Scientology.  The
works of L. Ron Hubbard are also quite valuable, especially
the "Philadelphia Doctorate Course" lectures of 1952.  Among
the many books that are available, "The Fundamentals of Thought"
and "The Creation of Human Ability" are especially recommended.

There are others who are also attempting to carry the
research forward.  There is much being learned and discovered.
The internet is a good place to look for them, especially
the alt.clearing.technology newsgroup.

There are also large quantities of metaphysical works that are 
easily available in the better bookstores.  I especially like 
Evan's translations of various Tibetan works including the 
"Tibetan book of the dead" (their road map of the between lives area).

This book alone is not a total solution.  But it will give you 
the most advanced set of tools that are known at this time.

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Do not get stuck on the first pass through this book.  Take each
step as far as you can and keep moving forward.  The drills in
the first chapters are in some respects the most advanced ones
and are useful at higher levels.  So do plan on going through
the book twice, once in a light manner and again in a thorough
one.

If a process seems too difficult on the first pass through the 
book, you can skip it and leave it for the second time through.
But don't skip too much or you will find that the later 
chapters are too difficult or run too slowly.

Also, don't run a process if it seems really wrong to you.
The most likely reason for feeling this way is simply that
it is not the right time for you to run that processes, you
may need to run other things (earlier or later in the book)
first.  It is also possible that for you specifically, the
particular process is an unnecessary action, we all have our
particular areas of strength as well as weakness.  And, since
this edition is new and experimental, it is possible that
a process is poorly worded, inadequately explained, or 
has other errors.

Do push yourself to overcome any laziness or reluctance to
face up to things, but do not force yourself against your
better judgment.

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SELF CLEARING: ADVICE AND WARNINGS

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This is a "beta" release.  It is based on a great deal of
knowledge and experience and is expected to produce good
results, but it is probably not perfect.

Read it, understand it, and try it, but don't worship it.

And write up your experiences for others.

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People are different.  What is easy for one can be hard for
another and vise versa.  On the first pass through this book,
some things will be too difficult and can be skipped.  Other
things may not run deeply enough to produce stable results.

The most important thing is to keep moving forward, not expecting
too much or being too pedantic about the matter.  Count on
doing a second pass to run these materials fully.

But once a process does start running, don't drop it in the
middle.  You can read a lot of theory and even try things with
little liability.  But if something really starts happening on

a process, you need to finish it or else the half run thing
will hold your attention and start dragging you back like a
boat anchor.  If you accumulate a few of these, you will
probably start to bog down and the solution is to go back and
finish what you started.

The general rule is that if a process is producing change (in
other words, something is happening), you keep running it
because there is more that can be achieved with it.  Even
more important, as you begin digging something out, you
are only looking at it partway and that can give you some
misleading ideas.

For example, let's say that there was a time when you were
a little child when you were afraid that there was a monster in 
the closet.  And you imagined the monster in gruesome detail and
then suppressed the entire thing because it was so horrible.

Then, while running some process, you begin to halfway remember
this thing because the mental barrier that you had blocked it
off with has begun to dissolve.  The first picture that becomes
visible would be this gruesome monster that you invented and
a feeling of fear.  If you stop at that moment, you might
leave yourself feeling a bit afraid and with the weird idea 
that your childhood home was actually inhabited by monsters.

Since it was you who stirred up the old fear, it would fade
fairly quickly.  You could get yourself feeling better just
by looking around the room a bit.  But you might have this
strange half memory that there had been a monster in your 
house when you were little.

If you had just run a few more commands of the processes,
you would have seen that it was a monster that you had
imagined during your childhood and would have had a good 
laugh about it.

So if something does turn on while running a processes,
keep running the process until you get through it.  You
should feel good when you finish running a process.

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You should work through the book in order.  The early chapters
provide processes which are useful as safety nets when doing
the more advanced ones and you are expected to build up skill
and understanding as you go along.   This doesn't mean that
you have to do every process in a thorough manner, but it
does mean that you should have some understanding of the things
presented and should have success with at least some of the
processes that are presented.

Ideally, you should have access to a professional who can 
help you along and keep you dusted off with an occasional
session to clean up mistakes and difficulties.

Unfortunately, at the time of this writing (1997), the orthodox
Church of Scientology (CofS) is at war with the various splinter
groups (Knowledgism, Dynamism, Dianasis, Ability Centers, 
Clearing Centers, Avatar, Ron's Org, Identics, Trom, and many 
others) which are collectively known as the freezone.

Most of these groups (including the CofS itself) have many trained
people who are capable of doing general cleanup and repair
actions (often called "reviews") which would greatly aid
one's progress in doing this book.

But there is some prejudice against self auditing and various
fixed ideas about what processes should be run and in what
manner.  This is most especially held by the CofS itself
which currently believes only in using the "standard tech" that 
evolved in the late 1960s and which represents only about ten 
percent of Hubbard's work and allows for no further research or
extensions.

The freezone practices vary as to how much they carried 
forward from the CofS and what further extensions or revisions
they have applied and which prejudices they retain.

So for now, you will have to see who would be willing to help
you on this road and who would push you down some other path.

If you yourself are already a profession, I think that you
will be able to move through the book quickly and get
a great deal of results from it.  The book does not limit
itself to what Scientology calls "low level" processes.
It is a new, more balanced approach that uses mild versions

of the most advanced processes right from the start.

Professionals who have already been trained in Scientology
techniques should read the appendix first for advice on
adjusting standard techniques for use in self clearing.

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One problem for the novice is learning the actual skills
involved in processing oneself.  It is not actually very
difficult but there is some degree of judgment and understanding
necessary.  And as you practice this, you will gain a feel
for certain things (such as how long to continue a process)
which can only be developed by experience.

To enable you to get started quickly and develop some
experience, the early chapters only introduce the minimum amount
of technical expertise necessary to run the processes at all.

This means that things which you learn in the later chapters
will help you do a better job on the processes given in the
first chapters.  This is another reason for taking a second
pass through the book.  Things which did not produce significant
results on the first pass may turn out to be much more effective
once you have a greater degree of skill and understanding.

Of course people who are already trained can use all the
techniques that they are familiar with.

Another difficulty facing the novice is that he cannot handle
some specific thing out of sequence even though it might be
giving him trouble.  A professional would, for example, be
able to deal with a specific upset that was troubling the
person well before the person was ready to do a general handling
on the subject of upsets.

This means that you might have to set aside things that are 
currently bothering you or pick good moments when you are
feeling less troubled.  Eventually you should be able to
handle anything, but that might be a good way down the road.
So you do the best you can.

Again, the advice is to go through the book lightly the first
time.  This lets you pick up things that are bothering you
and take some weight off of them .  You could think of this
as stripping off a surface layer.  After that you can push
these things much deeper on a second pass.

       ---------------

If you have had professional Scientology processing, some of
the chapters may address materials that you have already been
processed on extensively.  In those cases, you may wish to
review the chapter for background information but should skip
the processing unless you feel that more can be done in the
area.

However, you should not skip the beginning chapters or jump
to the chapter that matches the last Scientology processes
that you completed successfully because this book is not in
the same sequence as that used in orthodox standard technology.

Because of the need to build up horsepower before attempting
to run what are known as "lower level processes" solo, the
early chapters introduce some of the easier "upper level
processes" first as well as providing basic concepts and 
techniques which are essential to self clearing.  Many of
these processes are above any level currently used in orthodox
Scientology and derive from the original research line of
1952-4 which was never followed up on completely.

     --------------------

You should not jump around through the book reading random
paragraphs in quick succession because it may stir up too
many different things at once.

This book is highly compact, presenting the minimum necessary
rather than lengthy explanations.  Each chapter could be
a major study in itself.  In other words, there is little
repetition and no buffering of the ideas to give one time
to get used to them slowly.

You should not be afraid of looking ahead, but do not
look at multiple new chapters at one sitting.  At least 
take a break in between.

This warning even applies to professional processors when
they first look over the book.  Since about a third of the
areas handled by the book are also handled in orthodox Scientology
processing ("standard tech"), they will want to know what

has been added and might start skipping around out of
enthusiasm or curiosity.

Someone with professional training could certainly read any
chapter or try any process out of sequence.  But even they
should not stir up too many different things all at once, that
is a good way to make yourself sick.

The advice in all cases is to take your time and don't try
to do too much at one sitting.

If you do get in trouble, follow the advice given in the next
section.

Of course these warnings don't apply once you have studied
a chapter thoroughly.

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SELF CLEARING: IF YOU GET IN TROUBLE

As you develop skill at using self clearing techniques, you
will reach a point where it will be obvious to you whenever
you are making a mess out of some drill or process.  When
these things happen, one takes a break and lets things cool
down a bit.  Then you look back and figure out what went
wrong and fix it, usually by simply doing the drill correctly 
and finishing it.

A beginner, however, is more prone to making mistakes and
may not know enough to figure out what went wrong.  This may
leave you feeling bothered or disturbed or kind of "charged
up".

The most important thing to be aware of is that no matter
how badly you messed up, it will cool down and fade out.  Even
in the most extreme cases, it will all be better within a
few days or a week.

When you are working with your own mind, it is you who stir
things up, and if you drop it and put your attention on
something else, it will go away.  It is not the same as
the "real" world where somebody else will keep shoving
something onto your plate.

So if you do get in trouble, give things a little time to
cool down.  Look around and notice nice things, think of
pleasant times, do something that you enjoy.  When you do
feel better, go back and reread the chapter, and maybe 
some earlier chapters as well.

The early chapters concentrate on providing techniques which
are useful even if you are having difficulty, and gradually
explain the basic skills and procedures which will keep you
out of trouble or help you spot what went wrong if you do
get into difficulty.  If you do find yourself bogged down
and at a loss about what to do, go back and work over the 
first few chapters again.

The most common mistakes are:

1) You didn't understand the process and did something
else.  The solution is to study it again and do it right.

2) The process was just too difficult and never really
started running in the first place.  Just notice that 
that is what happened and drop it until the next time
through the book.

3) You already got a good result out of it and then kept
grinding along trying to go further.  For this you 
spot when you really felt good doing the process and
notice the point where it was completed.

4) A process started running really well but you got
distracted or otherwise abandoned it without finishing
it.  Sometimes this gives you trouble on the next
process, so for this you also check back over the
previous few processes that you have run and finish
any that were left incomplete.

5) You tried to run a process at a time when you were
otherwise distracted, tired, hungry, upset, drugged, or
incapable of concentrating for whatever reason.  Some
processes will work under these circumstances, but others
will fail.  The solution is to rerun the process at a
time when you are feeling better.  Or use processes 
which address the situation directly.

In general, you want to be feeling your best when you
learn new things and try to make forward progress on
these materials.  Many of the techniques are also helpful
when you are feeling below par, but in that case you
should generally stick to things that you have already
learned and done well with.

Some things will be easier for you than others and it
is the easiest ones that will work best if you are
below your normal levels of ability and concentration.
So don't discount the things that seem too easy or

simple.  Those are the ones that might work if you
are sick or overwhelmed or halfway unconscious.

If you do get too much stirred up by carelessly skipping
around through the book, give things a little time to
cool down and then go back and do it right, handling one
chapter at a time rather than trying to do everything
at once.

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SELF CLEARING: CHAPTER 1 : BEGINNING STEPS

Rather than beginning with a lot of theory, we will start with some
practical drills.

The ones given here are very easy, but they should be learned
well because they are useful all the way up and they may be lifesavers
at times when you are in trouble because they can help you throw
off mental fogginess and overwhelm.

These are "processes" which means that they are actions that are
to be repeated to a specified result.

There will be more theory on the subject of "processing" later, but
one of the basic concepts is that you achieve results much faster
by doing an action repetitively rather than by simply straining
at something.  You pound in a nail by hitting it again and again
rather than by simply pushing at it.

The desired result may not happen the first time you do a processing
command.  You must repeat the command over and over, giving it a
chance to "warm up" so to speak, and then you push through and
something happens.  It might be a trivial thing, or it might be
fantastic, but you will have achieved some kind of result.

The processes in this book will be numbered #.# with the first
number being the chapter number for easy reference.  In other words,
1.1 would be the first process given in this chapter.  Later on,
more levels of numbers (5.1.1) will be used when we need to group 
processes together, and letters will be used to designate commands
that are alternated with each other.

Some of the processes given in this and the other chapters of this
book are advanced solo versions of things that are or were at one 
time used in Scientology.  Others are original, either based on
early theories of Hubbard's or based on my own attempts to 
carry the work forward.

1.1 The Attention Process

This is almost childishly simple.  And yet it is an effective
technique for pushing through mental fog and blockage by directing
your attention outward in a controlled manner.  It also raises
perception at the same time.  Many variations are possible.  

In its simplest form, the command is:

1.1) LOOK AROUND AND NOTICE THINGS, SPOTTING PRECISE POINTS AND
MOVING BRISKLY FROM ONE POINT TO THE NEXT.

Of course people often do this when they go into a new or interesting 
place.  But most of the time they leave their perceptions on automatic
and they tend to introvert and their perceptions become dull as a
result.

If you practice this when it is easy, then you will have it at
your fingertips in times when you have been heavily introverted
and in those cases it can be of tremendous aid in helping you
pull yourself together.

Among other things, this one gives you a safety net when you are
self processing.  If you do get in trouble, it can cool down the
mental charge that you have stirred up.

It is extremely useful in pushing through the mental effects of
drugs.  If, for example, you were to drink too much, it will
help sober you up.  But in this case, you will find that you have
to keep repeating the process while the chemicals remain in your
system.

An important part of it is the spotting of precise points rather
than just vaguely looking around.  If you are indoors, make a
special point of spotting the corners (usually 8) of the room.

Even when you are awake and alert and doing well, this drill 
should bring about a bit of improvement in your perceptions.
The room gets a bit brighter, you feel a bit better oriented,
and a bit more clearheaded.  When you get this improvement, you
should acknowledge that the drill has been completed.

If you do it when you are tired or foggy, the effects can be
dramatic.  There you are, for example, half asleep and you need

to force yourself awake.  So you begin noticing precise spots
in the room and suddenly you come fully awake.  Or you are feeling
bad and you start looking around and noticing things precisely,
and suddenly you sort of pull yourself together and feel renewed
strength.

This is important because it demonstrates that you can gain
control over your mental state.

You should use this one a lot, to the point where it becomes
second nature to do it whenever you are in a fog.  This ensures
that you will use it if you are half unconscious or even asleep
and don't remember the process or any of your usual stuff and
yet you just do this anyway because it is so much a part of
your operating basis.

On rare occasions, I have had dreams where my perceptions were
very foggy.  Eventually this technique was so much a part of
me that I would use it in such cases even though I was not aware
that I was dreaming.  Sometimes it had a very startling effect,
causing the dream to burst like a bubble and I would find myself
staring at the bedroom wall, much to my surprise.
  
To learn this one effectively, you have to actually do it rather
than just reading about it.  So your first act is to simply
do it right now even though it may seem like a very trivial
thing.  Simply look around the room, noticing precise points
until your perceptions brighten up a bit.  It is not a big
deal if you are already feeling good and alert.

To get really good at it, use it many times over the course
of a few days, running it in idle moments at home and at work
or while shopping or while walking around or traveling.

When you are doing well, it is deceptively fast and simple.  But
You will be surprised at how much willpower it takes to do this if
you are groggy.  Learn to do it now before you need it in some
dangerous or critical situation.

This is sometimes called a "locational" process in orthodox
Scientology because it helps the being to locate or orient
himself.

1.2 Spiritual Version

This is the first step towards operating without a body, perceiving
things from a viewpoint exterior to the body, and to what the
psychics call remote viewing.

It is really the same process as 1.1 above, but you do it
with your eyes closed.

Begin by running the ordinary attention process on the room
while seated in a comfortable position.  When your perceptions
brighten up, then close your eyes and do it again on an imaginary
view of the room.

Don't be constantly opening your eyes to look around and correct
your perceptions.  Don't invalidate your abilities just because
you don't always see real things.  Early on you will have a lot
of imagination mixed in with the real perceptions.  Also, you
sometimes get "real" perceptions that are different from what
the body sees, for example, you can tune into shadows of how
the room once looked.

But gradually, as you continue using this process, you will start
getting occasional real flashes of perception.

Don't push this one too hard early on in processing.  Just do
it occasionally, accepting any mild "win" and not making a big
deal out of it.

This is actually one of the "ultimate" processes at the very
top of the scale.  Simply looking around and spotting things,
no matter what is in the way.  One might, for example, see
nothing but fog, but one spots precise points in the fog, and
then one maybe spots things that might be there in the fog, and
then one begins to see real things beyond the fog.

1.3 Applying the Attention Process to the body

This is helpful for speeding healing, easing pain, and improving
your control over your body in general.

It is a simple procedure of spotting points within the body.
Just close your eyes and touch points in the body with your mind, 
attempting to look at the areas, but not making a big deal out
of whether or not you are getting any visual perception.  It is
good enough to feel the areas slightly, but try to work up to
getting a bit of a view of the inside of the body.

This works best if you alternate the right and left sides of the
body and work up and down the nerve channels from the brain to
the extremities.  If you are trying to handle problems with the
head, back, or stomach, then also use a variation where you alternate
spotting points in the head and the stomach (the solar plexus is
like a mini-brain) because they are at opposite ends of a heavy
nerve channel.

Note that you are not your brain.  The brain is neither conscious
nor self aware, those are your characteristics as a spirit which
is capable of thought.  However, the brain is a big switchboard
and a bit like a computer or calculator used by the spirit.

Your normal operating basis is to control the brain (like typing
commands into a computer) and let the brain control the body
for you.  But you are capable of reaching into and controlling 
the body directly.  This process improves that ability.  It
is like bypassing the auto pilot and flying a plane yourself.
A wise man always makes sure that he can override an auto pilot
in times of difficulty and danger.

You can also touch the body (alternating sides) with your finger
or the back of a pencil to help focus your attention and then look 
at the spot (with your eyes closed) from the inside.

For a pain or injury, work in the hurt area for a few commands
and then work out to the extremities (fingers, toes, etc.) for
a few commands rather than either avoiding the hurt area or
becoming fixated on it.

Facing, accepting, and acknowledging a pain often cools it down
a bit.  And reaching into the area mentally encourages the body
to rush healing forces into it rather than withdrawing from the 
pain.

For now, do a simple drill of spotting points in the body,
alternating the left and right sides.  Begin at the top of the
head and work down the nerve channels to the hands and fingers,
including spotting the tip of each finger.  Then begin at the
top of the head again and work down the spine and legs going
down to the toes.  Then work from the head down the front
of the body to the genital area.  Then work over any other
areas of interest.  Then repeat this, continuing until
the body feels good.

1.4 More on the underlying theory

Let us think of the spirit as being able to direct a certain
amount of attention to things.  But the "attention" gets drawn
to areas of pain or danger or problems or other difficulties
and becomes fixated.

As the being decays, more and more of his potential awareness
and attention becomes fixated in areas that he does not want
to face up to and he gradually shuts down these areas without
actually withdrawing his attention from them.  Instead the
units of "attention" become "encysted" or "buried" and
he has less free attention and awareness available.

As you drill precisely controlling and directing your attention,
you will gradually draw "attention units" out of these stuck
points and regain control over them.  This strengthens your
perceptions and awareness and frees up your ability to think.

This is somewhat of an oversimplification because the person
is also capable of generating new attention when his interest
in something is great enough.  Notice how much better you
feel when you are looking at something that is really interesting.

The amount of free attention under your own control is a
major factor in your ability to think, perceive, and operate
successfully.

1.5 Applying the attention process to learning a skill.

As part of learning a skill where there are tools or equipment
or facilities of some sort involved with the area, you can use
a variation of this attention process in addition to the usual
learning activities.

Spot some specific points on the tool or device, looking at it with
your eyes, then mentally spot some specific points inside the device
(don't bother to close your eyes), then spot some more on the outside
with your eyes, then more inside, etc.

Note that this does not substitute for learning how to operate
a machine before you start running it.  But it helps you become

familiar with the machine while you are studying about it, and
it improves your perception and alertness as regards to the device.

This could also help with sports.  Doing this a bit on a basketball
and a basket, for example, might improve your aim.

1.6 More advanced variations

You can spot things that you like.

You can spot things that are safe to look at.

Many other variations are possible.

Any of these can be done objectively, with the body's eyes, or
mentally with your eyes closed.

And you do not have to limit yourself to only doing this in the
vicinity of the body.  For example, you can close your eyes and 
get the idea that you are looking down at the city or the countryside 
and notice things or find things that are safe to look at, etc.
We will be doing a bit more of this in a later chapter.

You can also use larger spaces rather than points and permeate
things.  But larger volumes can get unreal very easily, so
concentrate on working with points.  If you do try this with
larger areas and they seem too unreal or unproductive of results,
then begin spotting specific points again.

As you become more advanced, you will naturally tend to permeate
larger volumes of space when you put your attention on things.
When you drill placing your attention on specific points, go
ahead and make the points as large as you feel comfortable with.
But the keynote of these drills is intensity and precision of
focus.

1.7 What about blind people

For somebody who is blind, the first step above is not practical.
But the idea behind the first step is to spot points in the
physical universe in a manner that gives orientation and certainty.

So a blind person would need to do the equivalent action, which
would probably be to feel specific points on an object until he
had physical certainty.  Then he would step back and do the second
process.

In other words, he would first spot points physically and then spot
them mentally.  The spotting does not really have to be by means
of vision.  It is presented in terms of vision because that will
be easiest for most people, but there are often many ways to achieve
the same result.

People with severe handicaps who are trying to do this book will
run into the occasional process which is impractical due to their
disability.  In those cases, the process should be adjusted (as
in the above example) to aim at the same target using a variation
which lets them work around the disability.

Just because somebody has a physical disability does not mean that
they are incapable mentally.  In some cases they will actually
do better on advanced drills because they have more incentive to
bypass the limitations of the body.

1.8 Summary

The entire family of attention processes are extremely useful in
orienting yourself, expanding your mental space, and getting you
back on an even keel when you are shaken up.

These are not just beginners processes.  They go all the way up
the scale, with clearer and broader perceptions as you become more
advanced.

At this stage we are not shooting for full mastery.  Learn the
techniques, have some fun with them, get them down well enough to
use them in an emergency, and move on to the next chapter.  As you
continue to advance, come back to this chapter occasionally and
push your perceptions a little further each time.

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SELF CLEARING CHAPTER 2: REACH AND WITHDRAW

Now we will move on to reaching and withdrawing from things
rather than simply spotting them.

But first, this seems like a good time to introduce some more of
the basics of processing.

One of the biggest problems with running a process is knowing
how long to continue it.

If you do not run a process long enough, you not only miss out
on the gains that could have been made, you can also get your
attention stuck on something that is half complete.  And some
processes can stir up things for you to look at, and if you drop
them in the middle, you leave yourself with something stirred up

but unhandled and that can be unpleasant.

If, on the other hand, you continue a process too long, you can
get into what Scientology calls "overrun".  

There you are, aiming at some target with a process and suddenly 
the process completes and the target is gone.  Then you continue 
running the process and a number of undesirable things can occur.  

First of all, there is a tendency to invalidate yourself and the 
gain that you did make, and this weakens you and may make it harder 
to do the process.  Second, one tends to recreate something that
was handled so that one can do the processing command again.
Third of all, now that you are aiming at something which is
gone, there is a tendency to hit and stir up other things which
are slightly off target and therefore will not run very well
on the process.

The net result of this is that the process can get harder to
do and you can start feeling tired and heavy because you are
stirring up things that are not discharging.

To cure an overrun, you spot and acknowledge the fact that it was
overrun and spot the moment when the process was actually
completed and get back the feeling that you had at that time.
One recognizes that the subsequent confusion, difficulty, 
inability, or invalidation that one got into was due to missing
the point where the process was complete.

Of course if a processes is underrun, you simply run it some
more until it is complete.

Drills which are aimed at the physical universe are not very
sensitive to this overrun/underrun phenomena.  It is normal
in calisthenics to keep going past the point where you have
a "win" doing the exercise and feel good about it.

But if you were to do, for example, an hour of exercise by
continuing each specific exercise to the point where you felt
really good and strong and happily with it and in that moment 
shifted to a different exercise, you would find that your
stamina was better and your strength developed faster than if
you worked out for the same amount of time using a fixed pattern
of how many times to repeat each exercise.

To some degree, physical universe drills are unlimited in that
you can do them again and again.  But this factor of carrying
on too long, invalidating yourself, and building up mental
mass instead of releasing it does come into play when you grind
on with the same thing over and over.  So you shift between
drills, doing a number of other drills before going back to one
that you had a "win" on.  This is the fastest way to make
progress.

It would be best to experiment with and learn about this
overrun/underrun phenomena now while we are dealing with 
objective drills that do not have very much liability 
associated with making mistakes in this area.

Later we will be doing subjective processes where the overrun
and underrun effect is much more pronounced and troublesome.

So this is the time to learn to notice when you have completed
a process and learn to rehabilitate the moment of completion
if you discover that you have carried on too long.

Our first process will be to simply touch and let go of
something repetitively.  To observe the phenomena and learn
something about it, let's intentionally overrun this one
because it is easy to do with this process and the effect
is very mild.

Pick some object in reach of where you are sitting.  The
computer keyboard would be fine if you are reading this on
a computer.  Pick an exact spot on the object.  Reach out
and touch that spot very precisely.  Feel it for a moment
and then let go of it, lifting you hand away from it.  Do this
in a clean and precise manner.

Repeat this over and over a number of times.  If you don't
vary the spot or add complications, most people will complete
this process on a small number of repetitions.

It will take just a little bit of a push to start doing this
process and just a little determination to keep doing it a
few times.  Your first thought might be "well I touched it,
so big deal, I touch things all the time".  And there might

be a little bit of resistance to doing it over and over again.
Probably this will all be very mild and subtle because we
are not dealing with anything that has a great deal of mental
stress associated with it.  But you want to do and notice these
things now while you don't have any mental fireworks going off.

After a few (or many) repeats, there will come a moment when
the spot you are touching suddenly becomes more real and
feels better to you.  The object will look a bit brighter
and you will have a little bit better feeling about it.

This is the moment when the process is complete.

Now keep doing it for another dozen or two repetitions.
It will go all right for a bit and then maybe get a little
boring and then as you carry on you will notice that its
a little more difficult and you don't have that nice feeling
about the object anymore.

Now recall that exact moment when the process did complete.
Get back the good feeling.  Remember how you felt about the
object and how it looked at that moment.  It should start
looking and feeling better again.

That moment when you felt good is called a release point or
moment of release.  In this case we were not dealing with
a significant amount of mental charge, but in processes that
do, this would be the moment when the charge dissolved or
fell away and the point of release is quite noticeable.
If you overrun a significant release point, the overrun
effects will be quite noticeable.  As soon as you notice
that this is happening on a process, you rehabilitate the
moment of release as discussed above.

In general, you want to continue to do a process as long as
it is causing anything to happen.  Processes can bring about
change and you want to allow the changes to finish happening.
And as long as you are flinching or having trouble or the
process is stirring something up, you want to keep doing it,
because the process is addressing something and continuing to
do it causes you to push through whatever it is running into.
So don't back off because things get difficult.  That is
never the moment to stop.  The point when you stop is when
it suddenly all becomes easy.

So you do these processes with some determination and don't 
back down if the going gets rough.  But you can get fooled
because it gets hard again if you overrun past the release
point, and then your determination to keep going actually
works against you.

So watch for this effect.  The processes is tough, and
suddenly it gets easy, and then it gets tough again.  That
is the moment to back up and rehabilitate the release point
that you bypassed.

But note that physical and objective processes do not have
as much liability in this area as the subjective techniques
that we will be using later.  You can "overrun" these things
and, because the physical universe is there to keep you
going in the right direction, keep on going and pushing through
the overrun phenomena and eventually come to another "point
of release".

On physical processes, you can come to many points of release,
moving a little further along each time.  But the biggest gain 
will be on the first point and the subsequent points will take
longer to reach and will not produce as big a gain.  So your
fastest route is always to switch off, returning to a process
later rather than grinding it to death on the first pass.

Now let's use this reach and withdraw process.  It is quite
useful and valuable.

2.1 Objective reach and withdraw

Pick an object.  Pick a precise spot on the object.  Touch
and let go of it until you have a good feeling about that
spot.  Then pick another spot on the object and do the same.
Keep doing this on individual spots until the whole object
starts to feel good.

Then just pick random spots on the object and touch and
let go of them until you really feel like you can have
the object and encompass it and feel some ability to handle
and control it.  This second step can also just be done
by itself without the first step.

Do this occasionally, especially on objects that you have
to use or work with.  If you drive, try doing it on your
car.  

As a special variation which is of great benefit, do this on 
lots of objects in the room and also on spots of the walls 
until the room suddenly becomes very real and you feel good 
about the room as a whole.

You can also use this to help pull yourself out of a groggy or
depressed state just like the processes of chapter 1.

Do a lot of this one.  It extroverts you and improves your
communication with the physical universe.  It is essential
to balancing the subjective processes that we will get into
later.  Without things like this, the subjective techniques
can be too introverting.

This will improve your ability to have things and control them.

2.2 Mental Reach and Withdraw

This process also has a "mental" variation where you reach out
mentally, sort of like projecting a beam, and touch and let
go of things with your mind.

You should use the physical version  more than you use the 
mental one.

When you first do this one, begin by doing the physical reach
and withdraw on an object and when it is complete then shift
over to the mental variation on the same object.

This would usually be done with your eyes open, using the
body's eyes to look at the object and then reaching mentally.
But it can also be done with the eye's closed.  In that
case, you should definitely do the physical version on the
object first.

Doing this reach and withdraw with closed eyes will help
develop your non-physical perceptions.

Gradually you will find that you can feel objects mentally
and even start to permeate them and feel what is going on
inside of them.

Don't expect miracles here, there is a long way to go.  But
you as a spirit are capable of permeating and perceiving and
controlling the universe around you and this is a beginning
step in that direction.

2.3 The Contact Assist or Touch Back

This is officially called a "contact assist" in Scientology.  
It is very simple and useful and easily done solo.  If you 
hurt yourself, there is a tendency to flinch from that spot 
mentally and since the body tends to obey the mind, there will 
also be some inhibition to the circulation and healing forces 
because you are pulling back.

If you simply duplicate the action that hurt you, doing it slowly 
and safely with the same objects in the same location a few times,
this will overcome the mental flinch.  Of course you cool down
a hot surface, or blunt or protect against anything sharp, etc.

So let us say that you happen to stub your toe.  In most cases,
the toe keeps hurting for a little while, often surprisingly long
considering that there is no significant damage, and there also seems 
to be an awful tendency to stub the same toe again a little later.

To overcome this, you slowly swing your foot and lightly touch
the exact point you collided with a few times.  Suddenly you
get a momentary sharp pain as the incident comes into view and
releases and then the pain is really gone.  And you don't keep
stubbing the same toe over and over again.

Or, for example, you touch a hot surface and burn your finger.
Now you cool the surface off (turn off the stove, wipe it down
with a wet rag until it is cool, etc.).  Then slowly repeat
the action that got you burned a few times.  This can often
alleviate the annoying pain of a minor burn, and it might even
keep it from blistering (no guarantees, but it does seem to help,
and its free).

Of course you do any necessary first aid first.  Don't stand there
doing a contact assist with a sharp knife while you bleed all
over the carpet.  And don't expect miracles.  But it really
does help.  Try it and see.

This process is also called a "Touch Back" in modern Scientology
slang because you reach back to the spot where you were injured.

2.4 The Wall Drill

In orthodox Scientology, there is a series of "Control, 
Communication, and Havingness" processes or CCHs for short.

This is the process known as CCH 2.

This is absurdly simple and surprising in its effects.

Begin by picking two walls with a clear path to walk between
them.

The commands are:

2.4a) You look at that wall.
2.4b) You walk over to that wall.
2.4c) You touch that wall.
2.4d) You turn around.

This is repeated over and over again, going back and forth 
between the two walls.

The actions should be very precise, cleanly doing each one and
recognizing that you have done it.  Each time you do it, you
act like it was the first time rather than simply repeating
the action on automatic.

Now I'm quite serious in suggesting that you actually get out of
the chair and do this.  The reactions can be surprising in 
comparison with what you might think would happen in theory.

Doing something precise and repetitive like this can stir up
all sorts of old buried stuff such as hypnotic control or
being made to march in ranks in the army.  What is stirred
up might not be in the current lifetime and might not be directly
accessible by recall, and yet you can alleviate the weight of 
it by continuing the process until you successfully push through
the effects and can simply and comfortably do the action.

This process might not "bite" deeply the first time.  You 
might just do a few cycles of the commands and suddenly
feel good about controlling the body and moving it around.
If that happens, accept the "win" and end off.  But
go back to it later and try it again.

This process also has a "mental" variation where you lie down,
close your eyes, and imagine yourself doing the commands and
moving back and forth between the two walls as a spirit.  But
this is generally too advanced for most beginners.  This 
process does to some degree stir up old hypnosis etc. and
doing it while lying down instead of moving the body around
(which forces you to stay awake) almost guarantees that you
will fall asleep if any hypnotic stuff begins to run out.
So a beginner might be better off leaving this variation 
for a second pass through this book.

2.5 Precise Control

You can also drill precisely moving or controlling an object.

Choose an object that you can move easily.  Pick two spots.
Precisely move the object back and forth between the two
spots, taking care to move it at a uniform speed and land
on the exact spot without hesitation.  Let go of the object
each time and then pick it up again.

Precision type drills will turn on reactions sometimes and
you keep them up until you push through and the reaction
disappears.

For machinery, such as an automobile, control the machine
precisely over and over again in an appropriate manner.
In learning to drive, for example, it helps to practice
stopping the car at precise points over and over again.

In learning the piano, you might choose two notes far
apart on the keyboard and precisely move back and forth
between them, using the same speed and force each time.
Or use this as part of learning to type.

This isn't meant to substitute for the usual learning activities
in mastering a skill, but it can speed up the process and
take you to greater levels of mastery.

You can take this a bit further by doing it with your eyes
closed as long as the action is one that can safely be done
that way (don't drive with your eyes closed!).

This is one of the key tricks of the oriental masters in
learning a skill.  You will find it in everything from Kung-fu
to table tennis.

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